Feeling better justified about my injury

It's been awhile since I wrote last. I've been a bit embarassed. I was afraid I was being a "wiennie". Since my fall, I haven't been able to get back to anything. I went to my biggest loser session last week.....and dang it, their workout included going outside for a run. I had been waiting on that since I was now able to go the distance. But, I was still having issues with my ankle, so they had me stay inside and ride the stationary bike. I then tried to keep up somewhat with the class when they came back inside to workout. Was able to do the upper body part, but not the lunges and such. Then I was hurting from it the next day. This past Saturday I went out with Steve to walk, tried running about 10 - 15 feet to see how it would feel, and it was not good. I was sore afterwards. Walking has been okay, but while just sitting, such as at my desk at work, I would get pains, and it has still been swelling every day. So okay, I finally broke down and went to the doctor yesterday. Guess I did some real damage. From what he saw on the xrays, no breaks. He is having a radioligist confirm that today. Assuming the xrays are clear, he has put me on "contrast bath" treatments, a splint, told me to stay off it when possible, and wants me in physical thearapy for four weeks to re-strengthen the muscles. And this is all 2 and a half weeks after it happen. So, I guess I still won't be hitting the track for a bit. Can't do the workout at biggest loser this week as he wants me off my feet as much as possible. This is SOOO frustrating! I had just achieved a goal, and now I am so afraid of where I will have to start again to get back to it. My biggest fear, although probably completely unfounded, is not being able to run again. So many people have been telling me how once they had this kind of injury it was never the same and they couldn't do the same things they had done before. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT!!

Improving

Here it is Wednesday morning. I haven't been able to run/walk since the fall on Saturday. My ankle is finally looking better. The swelling wasn't as bad yesterday and it doesn't hurt to walk on it. I've almost got full range of motion with it, but it's still tight when I bend it forward into the position it would be when I run. I think my knee is actually going to hold me back longer than my ankle. It's still a bit swollen and the skin still feels tight with much motion. Part of the wound is still open. My arm is better, finally all closed up, but still sensitive to put any pressure on. My back has improved each day, just after sitting at my desk all day at work I can feel it, but not nearly as bad as the first day or two. So all in all, everything is better, but I'm frustrated because I had finally reached a goal and then I'm dead in the water. I am thinking I may go to the track after work tonight to at least walk some and maybe test out how things feel if I try to run. I have weigh-in tomorrow night and I know I am probably in trouble since I haven't worked out since last week's weigh-in.

Leave it to me.....miss graceful

I called my mom this morning and told her she should have at least given me the middle name of "Grace"....cause that's about as close as I would come to having any! This weekend is a working weekend for me, so this morning instead of waiting for the track to open to run, I decided to hit the dead end road by the house like I do sometimes. So out I went on my merry way, feeling good about not using work as an excuse to not do it. Well, about half way back I somehow stepped wrong, twisted my ankle, and down I went. Fortunately, Steve had his cell phone on so I was able to call him to come get me. Man oh man! If I do something, I do it right! Even after having ice on it most of the day, my ankle still looks like there is an egg under the skin right on the ankle. The knee on my other leg took the brunt of the fall and the skin is tore up. Ripped the skin on my forearm pretty good as well. That was the obvious damage. I finally made my way in to work, and now that I am back home I have come to realize I must have twisted my back as well. I feel like I have been beat. How sad what can come from taking one step wrong. I just want everything to heal quickly so I don't have to miss too many days of exercise.

Meanwhile, I did hit the track Wednesday and did my mile plus a lap before I started walking between sets of running laps. Thursday was biggest loser workout, but I only went for the weigh-in, didn't stay for the workout. Decided I wanted to be a good friend that night instead. Anyway, I was up 0.8 pounds from the week before. So see, I need to heal quickly because I need to work a little harder this week.

I just wanted to give a shout out to Weight by the Seashore. Thank you so much for your continued support! Hugs!

I did it!

I did it! I have achieved my one-mile-without-stopping mile! I ran....er....jogged....er slowly jogged a full mile all in one shot. And it wasn't on the indoor track, it was outside here at home. That meant some up hills (okay, down hills, too...lol). I ran and walked the mile back home. Yeah....one mile!

I just have to share

I know this blog is about weight loss, but I just have to share something else. For those that don't know, my son is in the Army as a mental health specialist. Today he left for Iraq. If all goes well, he will only be there a couple weeks, so that alone is plenty to be thankful for. But I have to share the story of last night.

I have the best friends in the world! Last night some of us went out to the Cactus Moon. I casually made the comment that at 9:00 it would be 6:00 a.m. Saturday in Germany and my son was starting his journey to Iraq, so I wanted to do a toast then. Well, I hope Craig could feel the love from here. I was sitting and chatting when I suddenly realized I am hearing my son's name being announced. The band was announcing how he was headed to Iraq and that I was there and so the whole club was sending him love and thoughts for his journey. Then at 9:00, the band stopped playing and everyone toasted.

I had several drinks last night (bad for calories, great for loosening up) and danced SOOO much, I know I burned off every calorie I drank. I danced with everyone at our table....male and female. I was as sweaty as I am after working out......but what a fun way to get the burn! And when I got on the scale this morning......no gain! Yeah! Also, I went out and ran 9/10ths of a mile non-stop, then ran/walked the rest of the two miles. I am SOOO close to running that full mile!

Weigh-in results...very tiny

Just a quick note. Weighed in last night at class.....was only down 0.2. But at least it was "down", right? I guess as long as it is a step in the right direction, all is good.

Outdoors again

I didn't get a blog in last night......don't think I ever sat down at the computer. But I did do my exercise :-) As I was leaving work I realized the temperature had dropped a great deal thanks to the storms we had coming in, so instead of hitting the track, I decided to go home and use the original two mile trek I started walking on all those months ago. By time I got home it had already rained enough to put puddles all around. And then when I started out, it was sprinkling, which was actually kinda cool. Here in Arizona, we don't get much opportunity for anything like that. Since the route I go is a mile out and a mile back, I started out walking for 1 - 2 minutes, and then starting running, knowing I needed to make it all the way down without stopping in order to be sure I had done a minimum of three quarters of a mile at one time. It certainly wasn't fast, but I did it! There is a sign 1000 feet before the dead in, and I remember when I use to try to run from the sign to the end without stopping and couldn't do it. And now I ran almost the whole way. Did notice a difference in my ankles because the track is level and here I was going up and down small hills.....but it was just so cool to do it.

Anyway, off to weigh in and exercise with the biggest loser class in a few minutes. When I got on the scale this morning, it had me at 179.6. But that was first thing in the morning and undressed. Now it's evening and I'll be dressed as well as have on shoes, so I know it will be more. But it certainly was nice to see a number in the 170's. I can't wait until my official weigh-in number is there! It WILL happen!

Some accountability

I need to be more accountable for my actions.....exercise and food. So, I will try to check in more often just for confessional if nothing else.

Saturday I blogged that I had accomplished a non-walk 3/4 mile. Well, after that we went to a movie and lunch with friends. Hmmm.....lunch. Chile cheese fries.....split between us. And a scoop of ice cream. How's that for a happy choice lunch? Happy?....YES. Okay, so I said I would relax a bit on weekends because I want to be able to make decisions I can live with long term. Short term would be easy, but also easy for pounds to come back when I run out of drive. So, thinking I can be better all week if I know I am allowed to relax a bit on weekends. That night we went to friends to play cards, and I had a thin slice of cake with a spoon of ice cream. Uh oh.....ice cream twice in one day? And the problem is??? I know...just kidding. I should have said no to the cake and ice cream instead of asking for small portions. Sunday was better.

Exercise.........Well, Friday and Sundays are usually my days off from exercise, so didn't do any on Sunday. Suppose to hit the track on Monday. Well, I got to the parking lot, changed my shoes, but my stomach had been bothering me and I suddenly felt a need to get home to the bathroom, so never made it into the gym. But I did get there tonight......and I did manage another 3/4 mile on the first session of running. Then one walk lap, two run, one walk, three run, one walk, three run, then cool down two laps. I will definitely have to be there again tomorrow night.